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Shadolf Hitler last won the day on November 20 2018

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  1. Shadolf Hitler

    i guess... i dont really know much just thats what he said but yeah
  2. Shadolf Hitler

    Fblaze told me that its out of his control and its the way the servers are set up... so yeah the only real way to fix it is to contact the server host... f.blazevski11/22/2018 it's because the hosting thing wasn't set up properly I can't do anything
  3. MAYBE isnt telling him what to do it was a suggestion reeeeeeeee :C
  4. *cough* PLEASE NO *cough* maybe make a navy one because navy are the face of the empire other than the regular storm troopers *cough
  5. Hi all! with my recent glitch i have had with the server I have had a lot of time to stalk the forums just helping out where I can... Now I understand the whole staff team is busy with setting up the server to make it the best place it can be and I know you don't have much time at the moment and that is fine i would rather have a working server than having trusted... but i was wondering if I and other applicants could get an ETA on the reply time? THANKS FOR MAKING POSEIDON GREAT! -Spud
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    I am very humbled by all the support really i didnt expect people to notice or even care but... wow... i cant explain how it feels im so happy that i had friends and allies i never knew i had and I'm sure there are many others i have as well... after spending all day today and last night about what had just went down i felt new and refreshed all the support made me understand I'm not alone and that the internet the same place that gave me these feelings had just saved me from them and i understand now that my friends who play this server are worried about me... and this made me understand that for me the internet or gaming isn't a way to "escape" life its a place to create a new one and save your old one and that RP allowed me to be who i wanted to be... People say I was just "putting it on" to make others feel bad and i hope you understand that I was not just putting it on and I am serious... I joined this server in early this year and i have not been in active without a reason for more than 2 days at a time i reached 2LT got demoted and used that to make myself grind every day in sandbox repeating the same breach and clear over and over... then i got promoted... then got PK'd not long after i joined the 212th heavies and would work my way up to LT... i applied for a high position for the switch did something stupid and got it denied... that just made me want the rank more so once again i started to grind the server as much as i could... and that brings us to today... every single time i get shut down i use that as a way to come back even stronger... and i dont want the actions that people didnt really mean affect my and other peoples enjoyment so i have decided i am going to return to SWRP i may be more "quite" than usual and probably a little less active but i will be there... just doing my thing... THANK YOU ALL!
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    First I would like to state please please please do not go after people who you think are behind this, this post was never meant to shame anyone but more spread awareness about an important issue in any online community i understand most likely no one meant to cause me more harm than just pissing me off and i wish no one any harm or guilt that would be very hypocritical of me to spread hate against people when i myself no how it feels so dont attack these people i dont think they fully understood what they where doing and please dont make assumptions about who these people are and I hope the feel of the server hasnt been affected by this in a negative way and I hope my story can help prevent anything like this happening again...
  8. Shadolf Hitler

    if you do have any questions feel free to ask me
  9. Shadolf Hitler

    Thank you all so much for the amazing support words cant describe how i feel right now i feel... empty but also like i had friends i never knew i had the feeling of anxiety will probably never go away not for a while but i got very emotional while reading through these messages and for the first time in a while it made me feel like i had some value and that people do care, but i hope you all understand this has left a large impact on my life and i probably will not fully recover, and i feel its time to say this isnt the first time, its that just this time the anxiety went away long enough for me to do something about it and i do still get panic attacks daily... and i know this isnt a fun story but i think i need to tell it... today on the server it was life as usual getting the average comment made about me nothing strange i was used to it at this point but me holding it all down had reached a point where i could not hold it back anymore, (NOW I WOULD LIKE TO SAY HERE IF YOU DONT WANT TO HERE ABOUT ANYTHING AROUND THIS TOPIC STOP READING NOW) some may have noticed i went afk for around 30 minutes to an hour... at the start of that time i had my first panic attack of the night... but this one was worse than most the thoughts wouldn't leave my head afterwards but i didnt think much of it so i kept playing... this was where i made my mistake... but... they never went away and when someone who wont be named started publicly insulting me on TS i couldnt just "LET IT OUT IN BURSTS" anymore it was at this point i found out that what these people where doing to me wasnt healthy and it needed to stop so i quit... and i hope i can get the strength to get back on soon but i dont think i will be able...
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    this was already posted on the SWRP forum but i wanted to spread awareness about this kinda thing to the whole community so.... yeah enjoy.... HI IM FRY ALSO KNOWN AS SPUD SADLY BECAUSE OF A FEW PEOPLE WHO FOR THERE OWN SAKE WONT BE NAMED HAVE MADE MY LIFE BOTH IN GAME AND IRL A LIVING HELL OF CONSTANT ANXIETY AND SELF DOUBT I HAVE DECIDED TO LEAVE SWRP AND THE POSEIDON SERVER COMMUNITY AND GMOD IN GENERAL, TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO WERE NOT HUGE DICKS TO ME EVERYDAY I WILL MISS YOU ALL... MOST I WILL MISS DARC, NEP, ATLAS AND NIKKO AND I KNOW THE NEXT FEW YEARS WILL BE HARD AS THESE PEOPLE HAVE REALLY COMPROPMISED MY MENTAL STATE AND I HOPE FOR MY FRIENDS SAKES I CAN GET THROUGH THIS AS I DO NOT WANT TO CAUSE ANYONE ANYMORE INCONVENIENCE. A FEW WEEKS AGO I WAS SERIOUSLY CONSIDERING TAKING MY OWN LIFE BUT THE THOUGHTS OF MY FRIENDS AND FAMILIES HELPED ME GET THROUGH BUT NOW THOSE THOUGHTS ARE BACK AND ONE OF THOSE SAME FRIENDS WHO MADE ME STAY IS NOW THE REASON I WANT TO LEAVE, FOREVER, SO PLEASE DONT LET WHAT HAPPEND TO ME HAPPEN TO YOU IF SOMEONE IS BULLYING YOU OR HARRASSING YOU PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE SPEAK UP DONT HIDE IT ALL DOWN Thank you -Spud
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    HI IM FRY ALSO KNOWN AS SPUD SADLY BECAUSE OF A FEW PEOPLE WHO FOR THERE OWN SAKE WONT BE NAMED HAVE MADE MY LIFE BOTH IN GAME AND IRL A LIVING HELL OF CONSTANT ANXIETY AND SELF DOUBT I HAVE DECIDED TO LEAVE SWRP AND THE POSEIDON SERVER COMMUNITY AND GMOD IN GENERAL, TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO WERE NOT HUGE DICKS TO ME EVERYDAY I WILL MISS YOU ALL... MOST I WILL MISS DARC, NEP, ATLAS AND NIKKO AND I KNOW THE NEXT FEW YEARS WILL BE HARD AS THESE PEOPLE HAVE REALLY COMPROPMISED MY MENTAL STATE AND I HOPE FOR MY FRIENDS SAKES I CAN GET THROUGH THIS AS I DO NOT WANT TO CAUSE ANYONE ANYMORE INCONVENIENCE. A FEW WEEKS AGO I WAS SERIOUSLY CONSIDERING TAKING MY OWN LIFE BUT THE THOUGHTS OF MY FRIENDS AND FAMILIES HELPED ME GET THROUGH BUT NOW THOSE THOUGHTS ARE BACK AND ONE OF THOSE SAME FRIENDS WHO MADE ME STAY IS NOW THE REASON I WANT TO LEAVE, FOREVER, SO PLEASE DONT LET WHAT HAPPEND TO ME HAPPEN TO YOU IF SOMEONE IS BULLYING YOU OR HARRASSING YOU PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE SPEAK UP DONT HIDE IT ALL DOWN THANK YOU -SPUD I WILL MISS MOST OF YOU...
  12. Shadolf Hitler

    I know its because you COPY PASTED IT >:C NOT HAPPY! but um *cough* vortex *cough* *cough* YA F*CKING COMMANDER HIGASHI *cough*
  13. Shadolf Hitler

    +1 KEWL GUY
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    -1 YA CANT JUST COPY PASTE A TRUSTED APPLICATION MATE! like WTF if i cant trust you to not lie and cheat in your application i dont think i can trust you with this rank
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    BTW CREDIT SEVENS FOR THE IMAGE!!!
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